Cerita dia..

Salam and wassap all..perasaan harini bercampur baur..lega, happy, sedih, seronok, lapar, kenyang, panas, sejuk, sihat, selsema, marah..everything campur2 in one big fucked up emotion..the only thing that can bring peace to me now is by reciting the Holy words of Allah..and alhamdulillah, tinggal 2 juzuk je lagi..cita2 semakin tercapai untuk tahun ni :)

I know that no one reads my rambling in here, that is why I dare to write..first of all, would like to thanks willem, for supporting me through this project..nampak kecik, nampak macam senang..but the troubles and the sleeps that u need to sacrifice, only I know how it feels..and thanks jugak to my sayangness for supporting me from far away..this morning berlalunya satu milestone dalam project ni which is the coar presentation..being asked by mat saleh really made me nervous but luckily I have back up from willem..agaknya camtu la kot perasaan org2 yg buat presentation dekat mat saleh..but to be truth, yg sbenanye mat saleh ni sume takdela pandai mana pon..kite ni as org melayu yg suka sgt pandang tinggi kat depa ni..in fact, otak2 melayu ni lagi boleh pakai..just the typical misleading inception that bugging our mind telling us that we are the inferior species..that is totally not true..

Gua pelik betol la..skang kat mesia dok kecoh minah2 melayu dok ikut mamat2 hitam yg besepah2 skang kat mesia..ape da tak cukup ke mamat melayu? Ke mmg depa dah tak nampak kualiti lelaki melayu? That is not for me to answer but for you readers to think of..to me, kaum2 asing yg selalu dipandang tinggi, they are nothing but like us..they are as stupid as us..the different is, their histories be told that they once ruled the world, and that fact alone made them feel arrogant till now..(Ok I admit, org german je bijak2 with all their maschinenbau shit and stuff)

Cukup sesi kutokan..lg 2 or 3 hari lagi umat islam nk menyambut syawal..and I feel lucky that I can experience the celebration outside of malaysia..emm..not that lucky la sbb tak dpt makan rendang or all those foods from heavens that descent into my beloved malaysia..but yet I'm enjoying myself here..and also can't wait to be on my SQ479 and SQ106 towards kl..wahai hati, sabarlah :) and di kesempatan ni saya ingin mengucapkan selamat menyambut eiduladha kepada semua pembaca yg sengaja singgah or yg tersinggah disebabkan oleh search2 pelik yg kuar kat google..

To my darling: sayang, I have nothing to say to you..I'm currently speechless..my thoughts are scrambled and I just hope that u are awake right now..wait for me..<3

Dan gua juga baru sahaj berjinak2 dengan twitter..rasanya dah penah ade akaun twitter masa kat london..but really I didn't understand shit of how twitter works..so kalo sape2 rasa nak follow, @madolz..but there won't be any gossips or frequent update like all those artist..tp bila pikir balik, takyah la follow..buat semak je nanti..

Oklah, going to sambung teraweh and start packing up my second luggage..till then

ps: can be deleted on ur browser, but not in ur brain's memory :)
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Overpressure apparatus..

Salam kepada sume yg menyiggah ke coretan karut..its the 25th of Ramadhan already and have u all accelerate ur ibadah? Rugi kan kalo bia je ramadhan pegi camtu je..anyway, pejam celik tinggal 5 or 6 hari je lagi nak raya..and there goes our holy month of the year..doa banyak2 supaya dipanjangkan umur untuk bertemu ramadhan next year..amin..

Speaking of, 6 hari lagi gua balik oiii!!! Sorry ye kepada rakan2 diperantauan yg berasa jeles diatas kepulangan gua ke tanah air yg tercinta..aritu dah ajak balik kannn..seriously can't wait for another 6 days..beg pon dah siap packing..tinggal nak angkat letak atas penimbang kaunter check in je..sumpah semangat!!

Sementelah ingin bercuti panjang, maka dengan ini gua berazam untuk menyetelkan sume keje2 tertunggak yg berada di opis sebelum jam 12 hari khamis..sbb lepas tu gua nak kemas meja kemas laptop kemas drawing dan pada hari jumaat, gua akan relax serelax2nya dengan bermain game ataupon melagha di ambang internet..

Belek2 fb td, sume org dok post gamba2 iftar secara beramai2..dengan family, ex schoolmates, ex collegemates, kawan2, ex ex yg ada (ade ke?) Dengan yg tersayang and mcm2 la..dengan rasa tidak bangga gua nk bgtau, perasaan jeles semakin meninggi sebab thn ni tak dpt bebuka ngan family..and sesungguhnya gua sgt2 rindukan masakan mak sewaktu bebuka and jugak sahur..bebuka kat perantauan?? Gile tak best..sape2 yg ade berangan nak bebuka kat perantauan, just stop it..takde ape yg best selain bebuka dengan seteguk air kosong sejuk dan jugak rezeki makanan dari mereka yg bekeluarga..

Hari2 dok hadap mekdi kfc mekdi kfc..depa pon dah naik muak tgk asyik2 muka sama je dok order depan kaunter..nak buat camne kan..makan tetap makan..muak pon muak la..kalo terajen sket lepas teraweh, buat la nasi goreng malas..tu pon amik masa at least stengah jam..nak masak nasi la nak potong ayam la nak panas kuali laa..semoga jodoh aku cepat sampai supaya tidak lagi perlu terkontang kanting didapur menyiapkan sepinggan hidangan..aminn..

Azam utama tahun ni hampir tercapai!! Tahniah kepada diri sendiri..4 juzuk lagi then azam thn ni berjaya dilunaskan..first time ni nak capai cita2!! selalunya azam awal tahun, bile sampai stengah januari, dah lupa dah..so alhamdulillah, tahun ni berjaya gak..at least dpt la aku khatamkan Al-quran sekali lagi before menamatkan zaman bujang..aminnn..

Perenggan kewajipan: saya tahu anda sangat eksaited menunggu saya pulang..sila bersabar ye..8 bulan boleh wait, takkan 6 hari awak tableh wait kannn..jgn risau, goodies awak sume saya dah pack masuk dalam luggage..siap konci dah..goodies awak je dah penuh luggage saya tau!! Tepaksa bawak 2 beg balik mesia kali ni..heheheh..nevermind, untuk awak mmg takde yg jadi masalah..love u always!! <3

Kepada rakan2 yg ade mengorder barang2 dari south africa (dengan menggunakan air liur), banyak2 mintak maaf sbb beg dah penuh..lagipon dah tak cukup time nak pi shopping..sabtu ni nak tido sepanjang hari..ahad dah raya nak bejalan pi umah rakyat2 mesia yg ade kat sini (kalau kami dijemput) and isnin dah nak balik..so len kali la eh..lagipon takde ape sgt pon yg menarik kat sini nak buat sevinier selain vuvuzela and daging springbok (daging springbok sedap oii!!)

Oklah, hp pon dah semakin panas walaupon suhu mencecah 10 degree..tak reliable langsung bb ni..baru tulis sikit dah panas..mengada2..puteri lilin!! (Pehal aku emo ni..) Siap aa ko bila aku balik..memang bb pin aku bertukar aaa malam 21 ogos..selamat tinggal bb kesayangan..bb yg paling lama aku pakai dalam sejarah bb yg aku ade..adios muchachos vamos nuches..

Ps: takdela nak kene sampai stengah bar pon..buek ponek yo kiro..
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A to the L to the kantpan..

Salam to all..and I think its never too late to wish all the muslims around the world, may we are blessed in this Holy month..perbanyakkan ibadah, perbanyakkan mengaji and paling penting sentiasa ingat Allah kat mana pon kite berada..speaking of kat mana kita berada, I'm currently in Alkantpan desert, a no man's land and where all destructive weapons were tested here since 1989..tempat ni sangatlah secluded, the nearest small town (even Pekan is bigger) is 300km away..slalu tgk dalam tv je cite pasal org stuck kat tgh2 padang pasir, and yet I am one ofthose 'lucky' people who are chosen to experienced this vast, deserted places on Allah's earth..

at Alkantpan..

Ape ek aku buat kat tgh2 padang pasir ni? Just work..testing and firing (though towards more kulibatak job I can get) but it's one of those moments that I'll treasure till the end of my life..tempat testing ni sgt luas, even almost always fully booked by countries who wish to develop their defense industries..and jgn terkejut kalo aku ckp Singapore topped the rank of those countries..bak kata org denel, almost every two months they'll come here and test their so called 'secret' weaponry..tak kisah la..maybe betol or maybe not..skang ni pon ade 2 org singaporean yg dok kat lodge ni tp buat2 tak kenal org mesia..lantak kau la, ade aku kesah?

Enough of this flat surface where you could see the day after tomorrow is coming at the horizon..sembang pasal bulan puasa pulak..alhamdulillah aku berkesempatan untuk merasa puasa kat negara org..mmg la tak sama ngan puasa kat mesia..food takyah cite la kalo kat mesia..kol 5 je sume belumba pegi bazaar beli lauk, aku dok gado nak balik umah cepat sebab bebuka kol 530..and tak lupa jugak untuk skype..so dikesempatan bulan mulia ni, aku pon cuba2 la jugak untuk stop merokok..mmg takde faedah pon I admit, lg bazir duit ade la kan..but its been my natural habbit since 13 years ago..masyaAllah..lama gile dah rupenye..paru2 pon da magenta kot..dengan ini aku berazam untuk cuba berhenti, or at least mengurangkan kadar pengambilan nikotin kedalam badan..

One thing that surprised me is, slalunye kalo time puasa, tak dpt rokok, badan akan jadi super lemau..but this year is different..tak dpt rokok pon segar je macam biasa..that's why people always said that, nak seribu daya..tanak bejuta alasan..kan?

In the next two and a half week, I'll be back home for Hari Raya..tp bukan raya first la balik..sbb nak gak merasa raya kat negara org tanpa rendang and lemang..one thing for sure, I am really looking forward for this holiday :) especially pasal gamba sneak peek kat post before this..doakan supaya semuanya berjalan lancar..aminn..

Last week sembang2 ngan mak through skype..sembang macam2 la sampai ke pagi..dari isu diamond sampai la ke cerita pasal my childhood..and to my surprise, I am shocked when my mom told me that when I was 2 years old, I still didn't say anything..and my mom thought was this; 'mak ingatkan aizat dah bisu dah'..hahahahahahaha..patutla I'm a slowwwwww reader..maybe ade kaitan ngan tu kot..org mengeja lagi laju dari aku membaca..believe me!!

Paragraph wajib: banyak2 bersabar and jangan skip ur meals tau..berat dah makin susut tu..nnt balik saya teman awak makan selalu ye..love u always <3..and thank you for the wishes below and the notes on fb :) thn tak dpt celebrate sama2 but next year sampai bila2 kite celebrate sama2 tauu..love you always!! :*

Before I end this post yg boleh tahan panjang, I want to thank all those who supported me through thick and thin..dan aku sgt bersyukur kerana masih lagi dapat menyedut udara free yg dikurniakan Allah pada tahun ke 27 kehidupan di atas dunia..semoga tahun ni aku akan lebih kuat berusaha, lebih banyak beribadat, dan lebih banyak bersabar dengan ape je dugaan yg Allah bagi..and I am glad being surrounded by good friends, colleagues, family and my dearest lover..insyaAllah kalo umur panjang, bertemu lagi kita bila2..

Ok la, jom teraweh :)

ps: thank u for the wishes :)

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Happy 27th Birthday :)

the gifts for your birthday...

1. may Allah SWT always bless you & your family..

2. may you success in your life always..

3. may you live happily ever after with all your love ones..

4. may ALL your wish come true..

5. sorry I am not able to celebrate your birthday this year but i promise (sambil angkat jari kelingking) that we will celebrate it next year - together with additional person - hehehhee...

p/s: ada 7 tuuuuu....~~