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Salam..I'm welcoming syaaban..then ramadhan then I'll be back for raya holiday..yahoo!! Can't wait..nevertheless, kehidupan seharian kat bumi asing mesti diteruskan dengan tabah..

Arini nak becerita pasal reversing the time..rasanya last time penah jugak ckp pasal bende ni, but in a different perspective..I'm sure mesti sume org pon teringin nak patah balik ke masa lampau..nak btolkan itu la btolkan ini la..secara summary, nak correct all the mistakes that we made in the past..be it for our own good or for others.. Ade yg berniat baik and ade yg berniat jahat..depends pada individu..

If you asked me, I never regret all the decisions made from the past..segala yg dah penah jadi, will always ade hikmahnya kan..everything has been written way long before we came down to earth..so ape saja yg kita buat, sume pon dah ditulis..many said that if we were to reverse back the time, then the history will change..whomever we meet will differ and foremost, we'll find our different jodoh as our life partner..is that legit?

I don't think so..Allah has a perfect plan for us..kalo die kata jadilah sesuatu di satu tempat pada sekian masa, maka jadilah jugak..the different is just the story..contoh? Katala aku tak masuk skolah shah pekan..then I wouldn't know my friends..bla23 I don't know my ex bla32 and I don't know aqilah..is that true? (Btw, I'm fucking with ur mind now) 100% incorrect..banyak lagi cara yg ade untuk kite berjumpa or knowing someone kan..we just doesn't know coz our little brain is so tiny and our thinking is super limited..

Speaking of limited brain usage, I don't know whether I should bring this up or not..mak penah cakap masa kecik2 dulu, never ever have a thought about this or u will go crazy..tp aku nk cite gak..sape2 rasa mental tak kuat, skip ke next perenggan..have u ever thought, ape akan jadi lepas kita mati? Ape yg jadi before kita hidup? And apakah yg akan berlaku selama lamanya? Doing things that u love, or being punished sampai taktau bile..untill eternity..yeahhh I'm fucking with ur mind now..

Berbalik kepada topik asal..I don't want to reverse time, but I would like to go and have a look at my past..not to change anything..but to learn every mistakes that I've made and amik pengajaran supaya tak ulang lg masa depan..or maybe I should start writing earlier..so that I could keep all my memories in one place as I do not have a large brain space to keep all of my memories..makin tua makin banyak yg hilang..and makin banyak buat maksiat, makin sikit la storage memori..

Enough merepek, come back to reality..I bought two super cute kittens last week; thunder and storm..adik beradik tp sekor bulu halus, sekor bulu lebat nk mam..macam kapet..and now, kene cari jalan camne nak bawak balik mesia si kenit ni..ade sape2 tau sila beri tunjuk ajar..I heard that they need to be quarantine in airport vet for two weeks..lama tu oii..

Perenggan kewajipan: dear, saya tidak sabar untuk balik raya..noktah :p

Mcm banyak nk update tp perasaan malas telah menyelubungi kalbu..lagipon thunderstorm dok tido atas blakang so nak gerak pon payah..(ape kaitan?) Till I write again..btw, 5 perenggan kat atas adalah draft dari bulan lepas..huahuahua..

ps: kalau btol2 boleh patah balik..dunia kompem kacau bilau..

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Selamat hari lahir Aqilah :)

To the person who's named above:

Happy birthday!! semakin hari semakin tua tetapi kamu semakin nakal..hehe..joking..may all your prayers be answered, may you always be in great health, may you become wiser each day of your life, may you always be surrounded by the love ones, may you achieve for what you wished for, may your imaan be strengthen day by day..I pray that you'll always have the protection and merciness from Allah Almighty, and that you be blessed by your taqwa..saya mendoakan agar jodoh kita dicepatkan, dan dimurahkan rezeki..may this year be a better year than before..and last but not least, sorry for not being there to celebrate ur birthday this year..sorry I don't have a card to give, but I'll write it down here so that I'll always remember that I have missed one of your birthdays..semoga panjang umur and next year I promise ill be by your side for your 27th birthday..I love you always!! <3

Have a safe flight back home, come home quickly cause I wanna hear all of your stories about umrah :)

ps: ur present ade dalam almari..nnt balik raya saya bg ye :)
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In a heartbeat..

salam..lately aku mmg malas nak update penulisan2 yg ade kerana kebizian dan kemalasan..so target skang is satu post per month..jadila kan..currently it's only me in the office..shamin n faidz pi denel dynamics ade training, hadi n razak training kat hemo, boh n cikgu turun assembly..me? I'm stuck here in the office developing test spec and test instruction..zzzz..and it made me realize one thing..tahap kebosanan bile sorg2 adalah sangat extraordinary..tidak dpt dedescribe melalui penulisan..there's no one to talk to (or I can say to merepek with) and I'm down to 4 days to submit the specs..nak main bbm kang kejap2 hang mcm bodoh tepon ni..my dearest nak pi umrah tomorrow morning..and it surely be the all time dullest week for me in africa..

Penah tak tepikir, yg umur manusia bukanlah bergantung pada jumlah tahun die dah hidup..but it really is actually the total of your breath, your heartbeat and the amount of oxygen that your lung can absorb..people didn't create time, they created time measurements..all the seconds and all the hours..sbb manusia sentiasa perlukan kayu ukur..so penah tak tepikir, yg umor korang bukan tinggal sekian tahun, tp tinggal sekian nafas..or sekian detik jantung..or sekian jumlah oxygen..katakan la, satu manusia telah ditulis masa kat alam roh yg die hanya hidup untuk 300billion detik jantung..and pastinya 300billion tak lebih and tak kurang jantung akan stop..kan?

Alhamdulillah stiap pagi bile bangun kite masih bernafas, jantung masih berdegup..we should be thankful always..bukan sume ade nikmat ni kan..ade yg bangun2 pagi, 5 minit pastu da meninggalkan dunia..atau ade yg tak sempat bangun pagi pon..hehehe..having thoughts that your heartbeat is reduced second by second is quite scary kan? Tp takde masalah pon bcoz kita tak patut takut pada kematian :) people born and die..its just the matter of when, or supposedly I say how-many-heartbeats-left..

To my dearest: I don't think you'll be reading this sbb awak sedang kepeningan didalam kereta menuju ke kenderaan yg akan membawa kamu sekeluarga pergi ke kl untuk mengambil penerbangan ke jeddah..but know this, I'll always love you..I'll always be concern about you..(And jugak sentiasa jeles), and I'll always be with you through anything..do take care of yourself..my prayers will always be with you..semoga perjalanan kamu sefamily diberkati dan dilindungi Allah..selamat pergi dan selamat kembali saya doakan :)

Ok dah la tu..ooo lupaa...untuk rakan2 jauh dekat lama tak jumpa slalu jumpa, selamat pengantin baru diucapkan..semoga berbahagia disamping suami/isteri tersayang..yelaa ni musim cuti skolah kan..sume org pon nak kawen time ni..I know I missed a LOT of my friends wedding..tp nak buat camne, I'm not in malaysia..untuk yg bakal bekahwin pon skali la jugak, selamat pengantin baru..to farul, selamat pengantin baru..sorry I can't come to your wedding..tp nnt next year jgn lupa dtg my wedding..heheh..okeh, kebosanan tidak dpt dihandle, mari kacau budak2 floor..adios!

ps: I'll always say yes to you <3

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