the prayers

ok..baru sampai umah dari menshopeng baju raye..(shopeng laa sangat)..ok tamat..

lately, my eyes doesn't know how to keep its tears inside while praying..sgt2 tidak tahu kenapa..slalu teringat bile imam baca AlFatihah sambil menangis terawih 4 hari lepas..his voice keeps playing in my mind..dan secara autonye, aku tak sedar mata da pedih.hmmm..im not saying that this is bad or what..i just hope that it'll always be like this..its really calming and brings you a piece of mind..
Ya Allah..aku sangatlah takut jika tidak dapat meneruskan solat malam selepas ini..Ya Allah, kuatkanlah hati hambaMu yg lemah ini.Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah malu meminta minta dariMu...
someone asked me: am i mentally ready to go there? dan dengan selamba aku jawab: da ready kot..is it?? thinking of it,sometimes i fell that i'm not..soooo many 'what if' playing on my leftside brain lobe..hohoho..persoalan 'what if' adalah sgt negatif..tibe2 teringat pasal buku Quranic Law of Attraction (which is aku blom abes baca pon lg :p) kalau sentiasa befikiran negatif, maka negatif laah resultnye..sbb kite menarik bende2 negatif secara tidak langsung kearah diri sendiri..so, mulai hari ini dan seterusnya, aku nak buang laa sume 'what if' dan gantikan dengan perkara2 positif..woww..(tibe2 bersemangat) \m/

ok, dah..jom sahur!!

ps: everybody will be alone someday somehow..its when you are 7 feet under..the question is when?? be prepared..:)